Aligns with my demeanor of this moment
Hopeful that a upward trend can be instantiated
While addlepated because Im missing what I really wanted
Haunted by a past overstuffed with sadness and painful memories
Devoid of the possibility to reconnect with source of sympathy
Another new beginning still has a rocky start
Full stomach laced at close quarters is an empty heart
Foolish words from a smart mouth
Finds the cross section of anonymity
Returns of divinity as a sense of serenity
Godliness found in just being lonely
The phony homey
Produces the momentous stretch of real fears
All that is near is not as it seems
I confess my world lacks perfection
The palimpsest of my life
Assumes its own resolution
Before I discovered the plot
My desire to make it better
Does not meet the inspiration of oft encountered depression
Lessons learned again and again
Continues to transgress into the negative spin