Things I Would Like To Happen Soon

For all those who believe in speaking ideas into existence and prayer in the universe will return to a person.  I simply want to write a list of just some of the tasks I want to begin to accomplish before the end of the year.  Any help would be truly appreciated. See Dream List Page Link also.


1. Be wealthy - Have my business become profitable
2. Bring more awareness to myself and my website - Receive infallible positive recognition worldwide and begin to share my thoughts in person with those whom value what they found there
3. Have meaningful relationships with female companions
4. Gain long term employment - Be hired by a prestigious corporation or the United States Government
5. Win national/worldwide endorsements deals with companies
6. Earn the status of a prominent figure in society - Get accepted by the media, political community, religious community, wealthy high society, charitable organizations, law enforcement, all races, all ages and all genders alike
7. Create new energy, new spirit, and new sense of self in the world
8. Get consideration for awards like Congressional Gold Medal, Presidential Medal of Freedom, Nobel Prize for both Peace and Literature, and Time Person of the Year
9. Help others enjoy their life and those around them more
10. Be happy with myself and who I am

Inquisitive Vanity

Reaching for new life
Through a means which is not that familiar
Surreal
Handshakes only begin the new deal
Smiles with head nodes are confirmation
Wishing for each first impression to be impressive
Might be incoherent rhetoric
The celibacy of further interaction
Leads to questionable assumptive conclusions
Illusions of the suspicious mind
Consume more than enough time
To rhyme
On that part
And sigh
Away from the keyboard
Lord
If I were to ask for a revelatory sign
Will you answer or ignore
And how am I to be sure
Renew anew to knew
Just observe

Previsional Efficacy of the Infinite Mind

Sitting in meditation
Eyes closed
Prayer hands in formation
Seeking forgiveness and the benefit of the doubt
Rarely granted to creatures like myself
Resisting tension stout
Whats this all about
Your guess is as good as mine
Line by line is borrowed time
Intersected as the common thread
Which binds us all to be better beings
With faith placed in beings not seen
The essence seems evanescent
Though we consisently participate in the silent act
An abstract derivative connects to virtues of the youth
Committed into adulthood as proof
There is something greater than all of us
Stand tall and rejoice
Tears stream from my eyes
Head tilted towards the sky
Praise the heavens with your voice
Thank God
Thank God
Thank God

Lovingly Feral Link

Flaunting the lost art of
Enabling myself to achieve a better
Nature with the walls of my
Tepid lustful imagination to receive
Your nomadic affection as my
Only route to your heart
Because music was not my way initially
Or could a new influence inspire the believable
Traversal towards a beauty viewed reciprocally
Evenly
True mutual feelings from a world where
That is not true amongst all the other mutually exclusive qualities we possess
Equals equal expression

A Self-Inflicting Dispute of Why

Wishing for the best way towards the best life for myself in a better world than the one I exist in today.  Current mood is sad.  I feel closed off and removed from anything that has ever had value to me.  But the solution to that would be to connect with what I have.  Well this is for that.  As I write this I cant ask who read it so I may never know the result.  The final tally is another way of saying it.  The negative exclusivity of being lost and essentially neutralized in your own creation is perplexing.  This seems to be my career after getting a Graduate degree is a field where I have do not have a place to accommodate the accomplishment.  Sad.  Not a call for foul play but an admission of lack of the certain premium held in a je ne sais quoi within my character.  This site was started from poems written in my spare time mixed with scholarship essays that I decided to share with world whether I received an award notification or not.  It only goes back to October of 2015 but what is this now.  Is it what I dictate to the audience through writing or it is what the people select is most valuable to them.  This is somewhat different from my perceived norm.  An introspective piece about where I am as of May 2018 and was any of this even worth it.  I am in a very cold very bad place without an exit plan to speak of.  The worst thing is it not being a new feeling.  Yet I dont have a winning routine to combat it either.  So whats the response?  The mirror's reflection only tells true tales.  So if I told you I have zero friends, zero family and zero support system it would not be literal.  So how about some facts.  I have nothing to do.  Some things that would be helpful would be a mode of transportation, a home of my own, a steady source of income, nice and loyal people to confide in and a complementary female partner to become to finishing touch of sorts.  Thats my ideal life which is what an increasing number of us have.  Maybe I have not attained these qualities because my approach.  Well what if I treat this as a prayer.  What if I treat this as my wishing well for money, wishing well for positive attention, wishing well for my voice and self image to be projected to the world.  Would I then become favored in God's eyes or am I again making the wrong decision for my outlet in assuming how to reach someone to help.  Help is a profound word that I have learned will be translated into what others will provide and feel you should have.  For me, it was sickness, it was abuse, it was theft and more of what ails any normal person.  And when I started this I thought there would be more of a positive return but my life has been filled eternal silence and seclusion.  A question I have is when you bring light to something that pains you do you only get more of it or will someone just make it stop.  Even if for only a second or to never return, make it stop. An endless cycle for a downward spiral is not sane to maintain.  Poetry out of place and context can be confusing.  But that the low mentality.  That's the reality.  And thats the stopping point for now.

Felicity Of The Multifaceted

Worlds apart
On paper as it seem
Left to only love the
Flawless roseate view
Immediate like first sight is always
Enough to brace for the
Onium effect
Better late than never
Or early and often
Twisted syntactics
Enables the discovery of
Tupled relevance when
Together can not be defined with
Elision

What To Call It

At a loss for words
Minus meaning to endure
For sure
Could be isolated as an empty filler
Synonymous with perplexing pillars
Towering above what I hoped to see
The moment appears lost on me
Spiraling out of the box
Talks in a very loud way silently
Connivingly decidedly forced to find a better way
Into what I don't know what I'm looking for
Less is more
More problems
With added time to solve'em
Compiled to build to execute to view
Was the main method I knew
Prized strategy
Embedded in the anatomy
Of a missing career
With the end near
A menacing hope awaken
First of a series
Will it get better
Cloned empire trips last alarm
Battle continues till one side wins
The umpteenth time must be the charm

Watch This Space

Spoke prematurely
About what could possibly be the
Ultimate attempt at
Verifying the probability of how
Effective this can be
On the occasion that
Building a better connection
Offsets
The likelihood of attesting that the
Exact response
Traditionally trades the appearance of
Tacitly vibeing for
Expressed emotion

Prescience To The Contrary

Gifted
As respect for my elders
To adhere to the policy of meeting and
Exceeding expectations into
Spirited effort to renew
Optimism of the
Believers challenge placed
On the world's stage as
Temporarily displaced
Event that can only lead
To another defining moment of what can be when
Time is only
Epitomized as essential

Intuitable Obscurant

Sing the song of sanctity

With with words worldly

Incited or intimate

Furthering fresh friendships

Tailored as your talent

Of only offering the opportunity to

Being yourself

On the occasion the other

Trade of trying to fit a fit

Entices to envelop the era

Touching that thats there

Test to teach teams too 

Emerged with emaciation of envy

Permit To Your Hand

Did you ever think
Of a way to maturely
Use what you do for what is
Good and universally
Loved
As something naturally
Sacredotal
Or at the very least originally
Born of a different circumstance
Of a secondary intent
To not only reach but
Enable all sides to see
The better side of being worth
The wait and how life can be
Enriched because of it